Recipe

Chocolate chip cheesecake bars!

1/2	cup cold butter
1	pouch (1 lb 1.5 oz) Betty Crocker® oatmealchocolate chip cookie mix
1	egg
2	packages (8 oz each) cream cheese, softened
1	cup sugar
2	eggs
1	teaspoon vanilla Heat oven to 350°F. Spray bottom of 13x9-inch pan with cooking spray. In large bowl, cut butter into cookie mix using fork or pasty blender. Stir in 1 egg until mixture is crumbly. Gently spoon 3 cups crumb mixture into pan; press into bottom of pan. Bake 15 minutes. In small bowl, beat cream cheese, sugar, 2 eggs and the vanilla with electric mixer on medium speed until smooth. Pour over cookie crust. Spoon remaining crumb mixture over cream cheese. Bake 25 to 30 minutes or until golden brown and firm to the touch. Cool 30 minutes. Refrigerate at least 2 hours or until chilled. For bars, cut into 9 rows by 4 rows. Store covered in refrigerator.

To do list

You ever feel like that to do list just won't get done??? I'm feeling that way.
All thats on tomorrows is:
Put Freecycle stuff somewhere and put it all on the site.
Weatherstrip the bedroom window.
Put the window plastic stuff on the mud-room window. (the stuff that keeps the cold out)
Wash bedroom window and living room door.
Clean kids closet.
Clean up the front yard.
Finish  up laundry.
Take shower with the really sweet christmas lights on. I love putting the lights in the bathroom that are all trippy.
Clean up and find homes for things that are floating around in the way.

That should do it...But will it get done...I have no idea. I had to fight with Joe all day just to finish a project. Hes just now finishing putting up the lights he started 2hrs ago.

Very excited for the Steeler game tomorrow night! Steelers vs Ravens! Woot woot!
Anywho just trying to wrap things up as the kids bed time is in 15mins. Anxious to upload my photos,Theres one person though I am just getting this snobbish better then everyone else vibe from and its a shame. Had to get that off my chest. Few photos again.

Tootles.

More tomorrow.

In todays news

Hello!
So much to update on!
We just went shopping to get the kids some new toys courtesy to their Grandpa. Joes looking up upgrade his tools as below I will show you that hes trying to build Thumpy a little house for winter.
Biggest news is my new truck! Its a 2000 and my first car was that so we automatically have a connection. Its a suv technically and its the same as my old one but nicer,newer and a diff color! I will have a pic below of it.
I still hate Joes night shift lol. More money or not I hate it.
Joe is getting his car aligned as I type this so hopefully he will start using that a bit more. Now with the safer truck he wants to visit his family more but I refuse to go unless he gets his Mass thing taken care of and we can go that way instead of through gangville NY not the real name its just full of gangs and I feel like I need a 22 to get out of there alive. Thats the thing with Joe something that should be happy and a good time and bring us closer will separate us because he listens to no one or cares about anyone really. Today he fought with my in Walmart in front of people told me he was trying to get away from me..VERY embarrassing then left without me...YUP thats the kind of guy I am dealing with. He came and apologized after once he realized there was no need for a fight and that I was right...but that does not change the fact that he just wanted to fight instead of listen or talk out the problems right then and there. So all of that caused us to get home after my mom showed up and left again because she couldn't understand where we were. So I am hanging out by myself now. If we can not work on how to be a normal well functioning couple I am through. I have had enough guys not know how to communicate and said sorry way to much-when they wouldn't have had too if they had just taken a moment and thought.
We each also got 50 bucks from Joes dad and I haha went and bought what I am always buying! Thongs...HAHA sorry but thats just me. I love underwear and lingerie I can't help it! I also bought knee high black heeled boots!  And Joe bought a carton of ciggs....and now has no money for a drill....Ugh! Pisses me off. I thought some things would be a wake up call for that guy but nope. I know it has been for me. I try to eat healthier,keep the air around my kids and I  healthy (HARD to do when you have a smoker around you!!!),keep things clean,take care of ourselves....You get the picture.
I dunno I just want to kick back and love my family and Joe makes that very hard too do...And I am not sure if I should take that into consideration...I wrote him this huge FB message a few days ago...WHICH I never do and thought he would really understand and maybe get how just off the wall upset I have been with his actions..NOPE 5am he gets up for a cigg...WHICH he never did before...today he fought with me over nothing...won't take care of himself..he looks like a damn wolf man since he has not shaven or taken a shower in over a week...YES this is what I live with. I'm gonna be buying more lingerie and hes not going to be the one seeing it,if he don't get his head on straight! Venting. Its not that I don't adore and love him. Very proud of him for this job and not having a hissy that his dad bought a truck what I say for the kids but for me and not Joe...BUT the not being attractive,and the whole smoking and spending money things have to go! On top of the already porn addiction thing...I'm having a rough time. I am a little too cute for someone to go to porn. NOT being cocky,I just know that I am not wearing turtlenecks and mom jeans...I got meself heels,leggings and v-neck sweaters baby!
Of course another thing on my plate is my body is so stressed and not eating right-like not full meals right because food-stamps CUT us off due to Joe not turning in something so now we have to wait before we can have food in our house. I am barely finding enough to feed the kids but they come first so I will eat PB if thats all we got.Lol. No joke I am not wanting a pity party,like Joe went on and told everyone about it. I am fine with waiting and seeing how we do. Its my body who hates it lol. And so my period is all messy,I know I know..I usually don't have one but this month I do and its spotting...ANNOYING! I think its over then BAM I am not. I hate that crap. I get the shot between the 10th and the 24th-that is if Joe makes the appointment...Last-month he stole my health insurance money...*sigh* I married the wrong guy. I feel guilty about it I feel ashamed....I cry more then I have ever cried in my life over this... BUT I don't want to talk about it or go there.Again I don't want anyones sympathy or pity. Just letting my mind roll and my fingers type.
I gotta do some more cleaning. Still no vacuum. I might lose it before I actually get one. I vacuum about 3 times a week and a dust bust 2-3 times a day...so not having either is sending me over the edge.
I bought some pampered chef at my moms party. Can't wait for it to come in.
Lets see I want to re-do our bedroom decor(we can't paint) when tax money comes. I feel like its not really a calm relaxing place....
I really want snow! I have pictures to take. Been slacking there. A lot of normal,every day,set up type pics instead of nature. Still sticking to my no editing rule lol.
I am absoutly in love with freecycle.org! We might be getting two recliners. =)
Also I am over people acting like they are poor but really are not....you cant keep your same habits and then expect to pay things on time and get yourselves caught up. Jeeze.
Ah I feel better. Anyway leaving with some pics and off to clean I go!

Tootles!

Recipe timeee

Chocolate  1	snowballs pouch (1 lb 1.5 oz) Betty Crocker® sugar cookie mix
1/2	cup butter or margarine, melted
1	egg
1/4	cup Gold Medal® all-purpose flour
1/4	cup unsweetened baking cocoa
1/2	cup finely chopped almonds
1	teaspoon almond extract
60	Hershey's® Kisses® Brand milk chocolates, unwrapped
3/4	cup powdered sugar Heat oven to 375°F. In large bowl, stir cookie mix, butter, egg, flour, cocoa, almonds and extract until soft dough forms. Shape dough into sixty 3/4-inch balls; wrap each around 1 milk chocolate candy. Place 2 inches apart on ungreased cookie sheet. Bake 8 to 10 minutes or until set. Immediately remove from cookie sheet. Cool slightly, about 5 minutes. Roll cookies in powered sugar. Cool completely, about 15 minutes. Re-roll cookies in powdered sugar. Store tightly covered.

Money saving tricks

I live by these. And everyone has there own so I am not posting this really for anyone just to see myself and re read what I write to see if theres more I can add or if others have some or anything like that.

1. I never spend over 2 dollars for cereal. I like the $2/4 sales. And will stock up then. Cereal is one of the cheapest things to make so the rising prices are ridiculous.
2. I buy Hamburg at hannafords where its mark down and then buy in bulk. Keep in consideration I do not have costco or how ever its spelled,sams club or even a super Walmart.
3. Shredded cheese again 2 bucks or under. I also will buy store brand. Tastes the same.
4. Name brand prices are sometimes just because its the brand. I always check out the store brand first.
5. Celeste pizzas usually go for 10/$10 which is great.
6. Bagels only get bought on sale. I am not paying over 4 dollars for bagles. Silly.Pure stupid.
7. Betty crocker goes on sale a lot so I tend to make sweets instead of buying little debbies and snack foods that can cost a lot of money.
8. I compare prices. I know every store in towns price for milk. Yes I do.I am lame lol but I save a lot more money then most on food.
9. I never grocery shop without sales. If that means we don't have something on hand for a week or so then so be it. I never randomly shop for food,I go every week.
10. I don't just shop at one store.
11. Aldis has amazing deals for food that tastes just as good.
12. Ragu is only bought if its on sale
13. Gravy 10/$10 then stocked up on,otherwise never gets bought.
14. Getting the meat guy to ground up chuck roast when its on sale to make hamburg saves a few bucks.
15. I reuse butter containers,cool whip containers..things like that.
16. I pre-cook things like chicken and hamburg then freeze them for meals.
17. I always pick up a turkey after thanksgiving as they tend to be on sale.
18. Wal-marts food is a little lower then some places. Juices,soda,gravy,ice cream...things like that.
19. Bulk is not always the better deal. For example My husband picked up a box of french toast sticks,there was 140 or so for a very high price,the boxes I buy I could get a little over that number but more boxes for about 2 bucks under what the big box cost.
20. Frozen veggies are just as good and go on sale a lot more.
21. Pasta sides are usually a dollar and add to any meal without feeling like its a unhealthy thing.
22. Making homemade chicken nuggets and tenders is amazing.
23. Which brings me to my Chicken deals lol. Chicken goes on sale about twice a month at grocery stores and I get it for always under $2 a lb. Usually I buy the breasts for $1.99 a lb. 
24. Dollar general carries name brand things for less. 
25. Canned food is always bought at Aldis unless its a cheap cheap sale. I don't get buying a can of something for over a dollar unless its salmon or something like that but veggies and fruits are just silly.
26. Chocolate chips are a great snack to keep on a hand. Cheap.
27. Roasts are simple and go a long way.
28. Crock pot meals!
29. Make a little extra for left overs.
30. Turkey Kielbasa is something that can go a 100 ways. I know pork can too but turkey is a little cheaper and healthier.
31. Breakfast is a 100 different things. I do southern,I do country.... Fried potatos and eggs,sausage(turkey) and toast...egg and veggie omelets.Pancakes,French toast,crepes,cooked bologna,nutrigrain bars with fruit. Just a plate of fruit. Expensive cereals is not the only option.lol
32. Sticks of butter on sale and stocking up. Usually I go for under 2 bucks on this too but sometimes I will just buy margarine around 89 cents.
33. Cool whip is usually around 99 cents.
34. Tubs of ice cream a great find.
35. Tub of cream cheese is not always a must,the block kind goes on sale and works too.
36. COUPONS!

There is more but I can not think of them all right now. LOL

I just try really hard to make sure I am smarter then the stores and the companies. I know for a fact what is cheap to make and whats not. Its fun once you get into it.

Much love!

Tootles.

Ah the life

First and foremost I would like to apologize for the first ever deleting of a post. I felt that I swore to much and put Joe down in a harsh manner just to prove once again to someone that I am not a horrible disgusting excuse for a human being. I deleted it around 7 am this morning and am sorry to anyone who thought they lost their mind when they didn't see it there this morning.
Second This is my blog I can write in it 5 mins after someone or something has made me angry or 7 hrs..thats no ones concern. Thats not fair to me. A lot of people get right on their blogs the minute something happens or a few minutes after something happened that infuriated them. I follow many blogs and a lot of the ones are like that. And last night it was about an hr before I posted but I had to let it out. I met it to be in a mature way,realizing now that caps were on at certain times lol,again sorry I was also dealing with a 2 yr old. So again that post wasn't  quite right and I felt it should be deleted,no ones actions or thoughts were brought to my attention,I was the only person that I know of that had an issue with it.
Third my blog is my diary. I have carpel tunnel in my right wrist and typing is a bit easier then writing so I have turned to blogging. My blog is open to everyone. I only told my mother who is in her 60's lol that there were sexual comments and rants and that she might not want to read it and she understood because it after-all is my blog. Its no one else's...Its mine. Feel free to create your own. As you can clearly see I don't use this to bash people,I use it to get out emotion and also share some recipes with others,I hope to post about how I save money and work on a one income house. I want this to be a positive place but I also want people to read and read it carefully so they never take anything to heart or too personally. Also if I am angry,things will be said in anger. But like a normal adult I will realize my mistakes and come back and apologize. Which I apologize now for calling Joe an A-hole. Although he has many issues he has never been anything shy of protective of me,that does not make him an A-hole. I would like to say once again that I really don't need anyones apology. I am not worried about tomorrow in any way because thats not me,I will not ruin a day. I realize that me just being there will ruin a bit of it but my kids will be enough distraction if certain people decide to come,I have not been told. I feel what is said between other parties should remain so I'm not asking questions I am just waiting and seeing.

Probably will go in Joes car...Oy! My truck is still down,Joe claims all it needs now is an oil change because the dope left everything uncovered the last time it rained so theres water in the oil which is a no-no. I am nervous that there is still something wrong with it. We will see.
I am literally starving myself so I can be super hungry for moms delicious Thanksgiving and pies! The woman made 6! Shes awesome!
It was cute last night Joe brought me home Mcdonalds at 1:30 am..and he knew that I hadnt eaten all night. That was yummy.
Another thing floating in my head, My vacuum and cone went on me at the end of last week and Stefano insists on putting holes in the wall near his crib well the dry wall is getting into the heater and I'm nervous it will start a fire or something. I just don't know how to get it out without a vacuum and buying one is not going to happen for awhile unless Joe gets this bonus they are talking about.
Joes dad is coming up Saturday. So I am indulging in Joes 5 day vacation. Just need to get this place in better shape then it is now before he comes. The kids have been really bad lately with getting into things that make a mess instead of things that are simple and easy to say no too. They are getting too sneaky these days lol.
I ordered somethings off of wal-mart a few days ago and it looks like it will be here Friday unless they don't do mail on that day. lol. I am super excited to be adding to my lingerie collection. I know TMI but its my blog,haha.
Want to get in a few shots tonight for 365. Hoping winter will provide some more awesome pretty shots,right now its kinda blah..or I am losing my motivation and touch...oy! Ah well,only time will tell.
I am not signing off. I am wishing everyone safe travels. Lots of food.Lots of love.Lots of pictures. HAPPY THANKSGIVING! (My fav holiday!)
Here are some pics to show I am in fine spirits and everything I do; I do because I want too not because of anyone else. And I am proud of that. =)

Down and dirty

Survey time!


Sex and relationships;

1. When did you start dating? 14
2. How many people have you had a long term relationship with? 2..sad I know lol
3. How many partners have you had? its double digits lets say that
4. Do you share your past with new significant others? Why not? Thats so strange to me,if I didn't know how many girls and what Joes done I would feel in the dark. People actually hide that stuff from spouses?
5. Do you act differently when with someone? Nope.
6. Are you currently with your crush? I do not crush. Men are stupid.lol
7. Are you romantic? Do I sound romantic?
8. Are you emotional in relationships? No. I will cry if my kids made my day hell lol but not anything over my husband.
9. Are you a good communicator? Try to be,helps if people don't lie to me!!!
10. Do you walk away or fight it out? Oh I fight it out! People who walk away bottle to much up.Irritating.

 Cooking;

1. Can you cook? Indeed.
2. Can you bake? Yuppers
3. Do you always use recipes? Nope
4. What is your favorite appliance in your kitchen? Stove or my skillets and Wok.I really want a kitchen-aid though.
5. Do you eat at the table? Sometimes. Its hard with Joes hours.
6. What is your favorite veggie to cook with? Orange and red bell peppers.
7. Can you plate? Eh not well.
8. Do you make things from scratch? OF COURSE!
9. Do you eat a lot of microwave things? No. I hate canned fake food and I hate frozen fake food.
10. What is your favorite fruit to bake with? Raspberries.

 Driving;

1. Do you drive? Mhm.
2. What do you drive? A piece of poo.
3. What type of driver are you? Watchful.
4. Do you honk your horn a lot? Nope. I scream out my window.
5. Have you ever been in an accident? NO so all the driving jokes can stop you morons,I can drive better then most of you(directed to people who have recently cracked jokes of my driving)
6. Are you a nervous driver? Not unless its really congested and even then I am not nervous I'm just over it and wanna get back to normalness.
7. Do you speed? Little bit.
8. Have you ever gotten a ticket of any kind? Parking ticket once.Oops
9. Do headlights at night bother you? Little bit
10. Dirt or paved roads? Ah both!

 Computers&Internet;

1. Are you on facebook? Of course
2. What is your favorite site? Facebook or 365
3. Can you fix computers? I can a little bit
4. Do you have a printer? Indeed
5. What site do you visit the most? Facebook
6. Do you go to porn sites? haha dont we all?
7. Do you know what things are real and what is scam/spam? Indeed. This computer is about 3yrs old and never ever has had any type of virus or the one it did I got out in minutes and I wasn't the culprit.
8. What protection do you have? AVF pro and Windows defender is customized for my needs.
9. What messengers do you have on your computer? AIM and Yahoo.
10. What type of computer do you have? Compaq desktop

 Food&Drink;

1. What is your favorite fruit? Kiwi
2. What is your favorite vegetable? spinach
3. What is your favorite meal your mom cooks? There is quite a few but her mac and cheese!
4. What fast food place do you like? Taco bell and Mcdonalds
5. Favorite restraunt? Longhorns
6. Favorite type of cookie? Oatmeal,hold the raisins.
7. Favorite cold drink? Ice tea or Dr.Pepper.
8. Favorite hot drink? Tea or Hot chocolate.
9. Can you make alcoholic drinks? Oooo why yes I can.
10. Favorite thing to get at a bar? Cosmo.Girly.

 Pets;

1. How many do you have? 5
2. Their names? Snowshoes,Dominow,Trixie,Hazel and Thumpy
3. How old are they? Snowshoes is going on 3,Dominoe is going on 21/2,Trixie is a year and a half and Hazel is just over a year and my baby Thumpy is 4.
4. What pet do you want next? Dog. The companionship and responsibility thrills me lol
5. Who takes care of the pets? I do mostly. But who ever sees them out of food,feeds them.
6. Are they spoiled? Not really.
7. Are they potty trained? Indeed
8. Spayed and neutered? Yup
9. How did you get them? Strays,Dominoe was from the newspaper and Thumpy from the pet store.
10. Do they sleep with you? Trixie does a lot these days.

 Love&Family;

1. Is your family big? It is but you wouldn't know that
2. Do you have a close family? Not in the slightest.
3. Do you fall in love easily? Heck no.Love is for wimps.
4. Do you have a best friend? Nope. I have just friends.
5. What member of your family are you closest too? My mom.
6. What is the biggest family get together? Theres not really one.
7. Do you abuse the word Love? No and I hate people who do.
8. How many times have you been in love? twice.
9. Family or friends first? Equal.Depends on the situation and stuff.
10. Are you in love? Eh. I'm content.

 Interests;

1. Can you sew? A little
2. Are you crafty? A little
3. Can you sing? A little
4. What is a hobby of yours? Photography in a none income way
5. Do you collect anything? Mhm I do.
6. Can you dance? HA can I dance??? HA Course I can sweetie
7. What do you do for fun? Bunch of things
8. Can you speak any other language? Indeed.
9. What are you good at? hahahhahahahahaha
10. Could you be on Americas got talent? NO