I am still alive

Phew,Been awhile since I could just sit down and type my little heart out.
Joe had a four day weekend...it went horribly.Him and I could not get a long if we were paid too. Was horrible on top of the kids having colds and no heat or hot water.
It got fixed today. The story is,it was a setting on it and no one knows this boiler since its the only one they have ever installed,so they are still learning. Its a energy/green type boiler. I love it,but what I don't love is how easily it has problems and how the techs know nothing about it just the main boss does. Makes it hard.
We got about 10ins of snow maybe less maybe more. I was not that impressed. It happened all at night,there was no drifts. I love snow no matter what but it bummed me out a little.
Joe has a 4 days weekend this weekend as well..so we will see how well this goes. Me and him just dont work as a team we get stressed over things instead of being a team and working together. I am also 100% we don't bring out the good in each-other. He smokes way to much for someone who claims to adore and love his family. He does not change in the way he needs too. Not all his fault as its about how he was raised. I feel a little hopeless. As there was 2 amazing weeks of just pure perfect. Getting along,no walk outs,no mess ups,no anything. It was great. Then bam. Old Joe is back. He can't seem to keep his old single lives in his moms basement self away for longer then 3 wks. Its frustrating. You know it could be perfect. You know you could have it all but theres that one thing keeping you from it and its Joe and his old ways,his habits...his thoughts. The way he does things is not the way an average married man does things. Ah well I could go on and on but don't have the energy.

So a lot want an update on Miss A who caused a lot of drama by hacking my blog and writing things,I never said.
I have kept my cool,she wanted to talk once and I listened but didn't dare open my mouth as I knew I would threaten her until I was blue in the face and I hate doing that. I will never forgive and whats worse for her is I won't forget. She will always be nervous to run into me or something. Thats okay with me. Keep her on her toes. End of it. Nothing else has been talked about. I'm over it. For now. =)

Nothing else has really been going on. A lot of negativity it seems. No food stamps and we get around 500 from them and this month they messed up so we never received them..thats really hurting us financially. Comcast a month for us is 219 dollars or so..A MONTH! So we are trying to cut that down. Just little things that are starting to test our patience.

One with me is my dad. Everyone says it,even my mom that he can not keep snow-blowing the driveway,its a long one...YET they refuse to lower the price on their house and find a small -more manageable home for the two of them. And its hard as they both complain about not being able to get out,dad not being able to do this or that. I mean hes 80!!! Why are they not bettering themselves or changing the way things are. Move closer to town,it saves gas,you can usually get out a lot faster,get a small driveway,my mom can get high speed...I dont care what town they go too. Go to Bennington. Heck who cares just stop playing woe is me and wanting everyone to do things for free for you. Its embarrassing as they at one time was not like that..well dad has always taken thing from the church but not sure Mom has been that way. We are family and we are the closest so we will help as often as we can but it hurts the purse strings. I understand they do the family gatherings alot but people with 1 bedroom lofts with dining room that only sits 2, still entertain,they can down size just a bit. It would help them so much. *Sigh* its aggravating to watch and aggravating because if you point this out they defend their ways then the next day one of them or both are complaining about life. I complain about mine but I can't change it but I am also not making it worse. They keep getting into debt yet now live off food-stamps. *Sigh* Love them. Just wish they would listen to someone. =(

Well the wing is whipping and the kids are getting into things. They have not slept all night through for 4 nights so I am hoping tonight with the heat being on again,they will. Fingers crossed.
Tootles

Pictures

New changes

• I deleted my yahoo account that I have had for...9yrs...that was hard it was even named after my bunny.
• I discovered the truth.(That will come later on in this post)
• Trying to overhaul this place to make it more cozy.
• Joe and I are trying a new path and if it does not work- Its the bid D time for us. I will explain in this post.

So not big big changed but stuff that makes life feel off the tracks..Makes life seem like its winning at kicking my butt when really I am just taking control of it. I just need to get use to change.

First and foremost..My family. I have spent 2 weeks going on 2 and a half weeks working with people trying to figure out why I got cussed out by my niece and why my sister well would like to see me in a body bag lol. Turns out for a whopping 2hrs there was a post up that did nothing but bash my sister and her living arrangements. I will explain as much as I can. A friend of mine finally FINALLY came to me and said listen I saw the post but when I went back in to make sure it wasn't you who wrote it,it was gone. So I started talking to her and she told me what she could remember about it and said she knew it wasn't me by the typing,by my anger over something she knew I only knew very little about(that would be Jakob,my nieces dog) She goes "Hillary you have met Jakob once,I knew there was no way you were angry over anything involving him"& "You have never wrote about your sister negatively until that post so I knew something was up or you were on some type of drug" she Lol'd.THANK GOODNESS someone knows me,she was just scared to come to me as she thought possibly Joe had written it and then bam it would be a killing in my house.Once she realized it didn't add up to be Joe she contacted me. Let me know what she saw let me know what she could remember. I'm sitting here thinking and thinking and thinking...then it clicked! An old diary! Then one thing led to another,some research,some stalking I admit. Some thinking and recapping and BAM I realized an old enemy who had always had my old and I do MEAN old blog and a diary I wrote with her and a friend,I realized some of the stuff written was in that diary from when I was 14! At 14 I hated the world. Nothing about Jakob,nothing about how my sister treated animals,nothing that she wrote was in it. But I did love simba and he was in there if I remember right I wrote something like "Simba is so fun but he jumps so much but anything is better then the dog next door i think its a doberman and he always looks so mean when i watch the kids during the day i dont let them out back as the dog scares me" I wrote "I cant stand greg from up the street he wants to hang around whitney who wants to hang around me when I am watching my niece and nephew and i cant stand that as then my sister gets mad at me" Things 14yr olds write. Well some little %^$%^$&^* who is mad at me for being happy! Jealous about my kids and husband. Decided a nice prank would be okay. GUESS WHAT it ain't. I know she can still read this unless she is too ashamed to show her face and if she can. I dare you too test me again when it comes to family. I literally thought my sister was either losing her damn mind or lying when all it was,was a 20yr old playing games. My pwd has been changed. I am trying to rekindle relationships. I am keeping this a secret as what is done is done. She did something unethical,stupid,childish and she thought she would get away with. I will be the better party and not say her name but if anyone asks I will...I will tell them exactly who they are. I can't stand what happened. People are feeling low about how they acted,apologies had to be made,thanksgiving was a tad awkward because of all this. And it was just a prank to you? Nah don't meet me,Don't let me see you... I complained. I vented about something I shouldn't have the only thing I thankfully did not do was snap back at my innocent niece. The minute I finish writing this I will try to forget. I will move on. I will go back to blogging about what I want too. I will stay the bad guy if I have too. Its not worth any stress. Mystery Solved. I win again baby.End of it.

Joe and I are rocky. I want a change or a divorce. That simple. Who I let down is who I let down. End of it.

Cassey did not work out because he made my anxiety worse. I am still a huge animal lover and I think before I act which is why I always do a trial first. He already has a new home. =)

I moved my living room around and love it so now I am trying to get the same vibe in the rest of the house that you get from the living room now. Easier said then done when you have no space and no money.

Still no food-stamps. How they can make us wait like this because they switched their computers around and their system is not our fault so how can they make us wait. 13 days with no food-stamps the food supply is low. All thought I am bummed it will get better and I am not going to tell everyone and ask for pity unlike my stupid husband keeps doing....something that must change. I hate that. I hate saying things to get people to give or feel bad for us. 

He took my truck again..his car all of a sudden is not good in snow. BULL. If his dad hadn't been a sweetheart and bought it for us he would be telling me how amazing his car is. But hes controlling,jealous and selfish. Something again we have too work on.

If anyone notices he does it not me. So please dislike him not me. I try hard to indulge in other people. Listen to them.Talk about their life and stuff.

OH and how he acted at my sisters almost made me hit him over the head with one of her kitchen chairs. Walks right in and starts just grabbing stuff like "I'm taking one of these" or what ever he did it so meanly and rudely. I took as little food as possible and drank as little as possible. He did not. He acted like he hadn't ate in weeks. Hes always good with the kids BUT he just comes off like..well...a big fat obnoxious jerk. Completely made me just realize..we gotta talk before I never take him anywhere again. And that he must have been raised in a cave! I love him. And we have come a long way but there is still things that just need too stop. My family comes first and for him to act like that was unacceptable.

I go thursday for my Depo shot. Another 3 months down.

Well think thats enough writing for tonight. Will post tomorrow about how the talk between Joe and I goes and things.

Much love

Tootles

What makes my life easier

So I thought and noticed things that make my life easier. And I'm thinking more of the not so common things. Of course internet,phone and tv makes it easier and more enjoyable but these things I think we sometimes forget or don't realize help.This is my list.

1. The Cone. So much power,takes up little space and makes little messes a breeze to clean up
2. Swivel head on my faucet. I don't have a hand sprayer? Not sure what its called, on my sink so the swivel head makes things a tad easier.
3. Bread machine. It saves money and makes my house smell so good.
4. Recycling. Saves me garbage bags.
5. Chest freezer or upright it don't matter. Being without one I now realize that to stock up and by all 10/$10 deals and to by in bulk...with out it..is very hard to accomplish these things.
6. Dryer sheets. Let me explain,My moms old washing machine there is a place to put softener and you can put it in,in the beginning so its not trying to make sure you get to the machine during what ever cycle and blah blah. I have never figured out the key to putting in softener with a machine that does not operate like my moms. You put it in during rinse cycle? Or during the wash? What happens if you miss it and it goes through before you get there? 
7. Calenders. Need I say more?

Theres more I am sure. But thats what I noticed just tonight.

Now I realize everything we have in this generation and even the little things matter and help in some way. =)

Tootles

No words

Recipe

Chocolate chip cheesecake bars!

1/2	cup cold butter
1	pouch (1 lb 1.5 oz) Betty Crocker® oatmealchocolate chip cookie mix
1	egg
2	packages (8 oz each) cream cheese, softened
1	cup sugar
2	eggs
1	teaspoon vanilla Heat oven to 350°F. Spray bottom of 13x9-inch pan with cooking spray. In large bowl, cut butter into cookie mix using fork or pasty blender. Stir in 1 egg until mixture is crumbly. Gently spoon 3 cups crumb mixture into pan; press into bottom of pan. Bake 15 minutes. In small bowl, beat cream cheese, sugar, 2 eggs and the vanilla with electric mixer on medium speed until smooth. Pour over cookie crust. Spoon remaining crumb mixture over cream cheese. Bake 25 to 30 minutes or until golden brown and firm to the touch. Cool 30 minutes. Refrigerate at least 2 hours or until chilled. For bars, cut into 9 rows by 4 rows. Store covered in refrigerator.

To do list

You ever feel like that to do list just won't get done??? I'm feeling that way.
All thats on tomorrows is:
Put Freecycle stuff somewhere and put it all on the site.
Weatherstrip the bedroom window.
Put the window plastic stuff on the mud-room window. (the stuff that keeps the cold out)
Wash bedroom window and living room door.
Clean kids closet.
Clean up the front yard.
Finish  up laundry.
Take shower with the really sweet christmas lights on. I love putting the lights in the bathroom that are all trippy.
Clean up and find homes for things that are floating around in the way.

That should do it...But will it get done...I have no idea. I had to fight with Joe all day just to finish a project. Hes just now finishing putting up the lights he started 2hrs ago.

Very excited for the Steeler game tomorrow night! Steelers vs Ravens! Woot woot!
Anywho just trying to wrap things up as the kids bed time is in 15mins. Anxious to upload my photos,Theres one person though I am just getting this snobbish better then everyone else vibe from and its a shame. Had to get that off my chest. Few photos again.

Tootles.

More tomorrow.

In todays news

Hello!
So much to update on!
We just went shopping to get the kids some new toys courtesy to their Grandpa. Joes looking up upgrade his tools as below I will show you that hes trying to build Thumpy a little house for winter.
Biggest news is my new truck! Its a 2000 and my first car was that so we automatically have a connection. Its a suv technically and its the same as my old one but nicer,newer and a diff color! I will have a pic below of it.
I still hate Joes night shift lol. More money or not I hate it.
Joe is getting his car aligned as I type this so hopefully he will start using that a bit more. Now with the safer truck he wants to visit his family more but I refuse to go unless he gets his Mass thing taken care of and we can go that way instead of through gangville NY not the real name its just full of gangs and I feel like I need a 22 to get out of there alive. Thats the thing with Joe something that should be happy and a good time and bring us closer will separate us because he listens to no one or cares about anyone really. Today he fought with my in Walmart in front of people told me he was trying to get away from me..VERY embarrassing then left without me...YUP thats the kind of guy I am dealing with. He came and apologized after once he realized there was no need for a fight and that I was right...but that does not change the fact that he just wanted to fight instead of listen or talk out the problems right then and there. So all of that caused us to get home after my mom showed up and left again because she couldn't understand where we were. So I am hanging out by myself now. If we can not work on how to be a normal well functioning couple I am through. I have had enough guys not know how to communicate and said sorry way to much-when they wouldn't have had too if they had just taken a moment and thought.
We each also got 50 bucks from Joes dad and I haha went and bought what I am always buying! Thongs...HAHA sorry but thats just me. I love underwear and lingerie I can't help it! I also bought knee high black heeled boots!  And Joe bought a carton of ciggs....and now has no money for a drill....Ugh! Pisses me off. I thought some things would be a wake up call for that guy but nope. I know it has been for me. I try to eat healthier,keep the air around my kids and I  healthy (HARD to do when you have a smoker around you!!!),keep things clean,take care of ourselves....You get the picture.
I dunno I just want to kick back and love my family and Joe makes that very hard too do...And I am not sure if I should take that into consideration...I wrote him this huge FB message a few days ago...WHICH I never do and thought he would really understand and maybe get how just off the wall upset I have been with his actions..NOPE 5am he gets up for a cigg...WHICH he never did before...today he fought with me over nothing...won't take care of himself..he looks like a damn wolf man since he has not shaven or taken a shower in over a week...YES this is what I live with. I'm gonna be buying more lingerie and hes not going to be the one seeing it,if he don't get his head on straight! Venting. Its not that I don't adore and love him. Very proud of him for this job and not having a hissy that his dad bought a truck what I say for the kids but for me and not Joe...BUT the not being attractive,and the whole smoking and spending money things have to go! On top of the already porn addiction thing...I'm having a rough time. I am a little too cute for someone to go to porn. NOT being cocky,I just know that I am not wearing turtlenecks and mom jeans...I got meself heels,leggings and v-neck sweaters baby!
Of course another thing on my plate is my body is so stressed and not eating right-like not full meals right because food-stamps CUT us off due to Joe not turning in something so now we have to wait before we can have food in our house. I am barely finding enough to feed the kids but they come first so I will eat PB if thats all we got.Lol. No joke I am not wanting a pity party,like Joe went on and told everyone about it. I am fine with waiting and seeing how we do. Its my body who hates it lol. And so my period is all messy,I know I know..I usually don't have one but this month I do and its spotting...ANNOYING! I think its over then BAM I am not. I hate that crap. I get the shot between the 10th and the 24th-that is if Joe makes the appointment...Last-month he stole my health insurance money...*sigh* I married the wrong guy. I feel guilty about it I feel ashamed....I cry more then I have ever cried in my life over this... BUT I don't want to talk about it or go there.Again I don't want anyones sympathy or pity. Just letting my mind roll and my fingers type.
I gotta do some more cleaning. Still no vacuum. I might lose it before I actually get one. I vacuum about 3 times a week and a dust bust 2-3 times a day...so not having either is sending me over the edge.
I bought some pampered chef at my moms party. Can't wait for it to come in.
Lets see I want to re-do our bedroom decor(we can't paint) when tax money comes. I feel like its not really a calm relaxing place....
I really want snow! I have pictures to take. Been slacking there. A lot of normal,every day,set up type pics instead of nature. Still sticking to my no editing rule lol.
I am absoutly in love with freecycle.org! We might be getting two recliners. =)
Also I am over people acting like they are poor but really are not....you cant keep your same habits and then expect to pay things on time and get yourselves caught up. Jeeze.
Ah I feel better. Anyway leaving with some pics and off to clean I go!

Tootles!

Recipe timeee

Chocolate  1	snowballs pouch (1 lb 1.5 oz) Betty Crocker® sugar cookie mix
1/2	cup butter or margarine, melted
1	egg
1/4	cup Gold Medal® all-purpose flour
1/4	cup unsweetened baking cocoa
1/2	cup finely chopped almonds
1	teaspoon almond extract
60	Hershey's® Kisses® Brand milk chocolates, unwrapped
3/4	cup powdered sugar Heat oven to 375°F. In large bowl, stir cookie mix, butter, egg, flour, cocoa, almonds and extract until soft dough forms. Shape dough into sixty 3/4-inch balls; wrap each around 1 milk chocolate candy. Place 2 inches apart on ungreased cookie sheet. Bake 8 to 10 minutes or until set. Immediately remove from cookie sheet. Cool slightly, about 5 minutes. Roll cookies in powered sugar. Cool completely, about 15 minutes. Re-roll cookies in powdered sugar. Store tightly covered.

Money saving tricks

I live by these. And everyone has there own so I am not posting this really for anyone just to see myself and re read what I write to see if theres more I can add or if others have some or anything like that.

1. I never spend over 2 dollars for cereal. I like the $2/4 sales. And will stock up then. Cereal is one of the cheapest things to make so the rising prices are ridiculous.
2. I buy Hamburg at hannafords where its mark down and then buy in bulk. Keep in consideration I do not have costco or how ever its spelled,sams club or even a super Walmart.
3. Shredded cheese again 2 bucks or under. I also will buy store brand. Tastes the same.
4. Name brand prices are sometimes just because its the brand. I always check out the store brand first.
5. Celeste pizzas usually go for 10/$10 which is great.
6. Bagels only get bought on sale. I am not paying over 4 dollars for bagles. Silly.Pure stupid.
7. Betty crocker goes on sale a lot so I tend to make sweets instead of buying little debbies and snack foods that can cost a lot of money.
8. I compare prices. I know every store in towns price for milk. Yes I do.I am lame lol but I save a lot more money then most on food.
9. I never grocery shop without sales. If that means we don't have something on hand for a week or so then so be it. I never randomly shop for food,I go every week.
10. I don't just shop at one store.
11. Aldis has amazing deals for food that tastes just as good.
12. Ragu is only bought if its on sale
13. Gravy 10/$10 then stocked up on,otherwise never gets bought.
14. Getting the meat guy to ground up chuck roast when its on sale to make hamburg saves a few bucks.
15. I reuse butter containers,cool whip containers..things like that.
16. I pre-cook things like chicken and hamburg then freeze them for meals.
17. I always pick up a turkey after thanksgiving as they tend to be on sale.
18. Wal-marts food is a little lower then some places. Juices,soda,gravy,ice cream...things like that.
19. Bulk is not always the better deal. For example My husband picked up a box of french toast sticks,there was 140 or so for a very high price,the boxes I buy I could get a little over that number but more boxes for about 2 bucks under what the big box cost.
20. Frozen veggies are just as good and go on sale a lot more.
21. Pasta sides are usually a dollar and add to any meal without feeling like its a unhealthy thing.
22. Making homemade chicken nuggets and tenders is amazing.
23. Which brings me to my Chicken deals lol. Chicken goes on sale about twice a month at grocery stores and I get it for always under $2 a lb. Usually I buy the breasts for $1.99 a lb. 
24. Dollar general carries name brand things for less. 
25. Canned food is always bought at Aldis unless its a cheap cheap sale. I don't get buying a can of something for over a dollar unless its salmon or something like that but veggies and fruits are just silly.
26. Chocolate chips are a great snack to keep on a hand. Cheap.
27. Roasts are simple and go a long way.
28. Crock pot meals!
29. Make a little extra for left overs.
30. Turkey Kielbasa is something that can go a 100 ways. I know pork can too but turkey is a little cheaper and healthier.
31. Breakfast is a 100 different things. I do southern,I do country.... Fried potatos and eggs,sausage(turkey) and toast...egg and veggie omelets.Pancakes,French toast,crepes,cooked bologna,nutrigrain bars with fruit. Just a plate of fruit. Expensive cereals is not the only option.lol
32. Sticks of butter on sale and stocking up. Usually I go for under 2 bucks on this too but sometimes I will just buy margarine around 89 cents.
33. Cool whip is usually around 99 cents.
34. Tubs of ice cream a great find.
35. Tub of cream cheese is not always a must,the block kind goes on sale and works too.
36. COUPONS!

There is more but I can not think of them all right now. LOL

I just try really hard to make sure I am smarter then the stores and the companies. I know for a fact what is cheap to make and whats not. Its fun once you get into it.

Much love!

Tootles.

Ah the life

First and foremost I would like to apologize for the first ever deleting of a post. I felt that I swore to much and put Joe down in a harsh manner just to prove once again to someone that I am not a horrible disgusting excuse for a human being. I deleted it around 7 am this morning and am sorry to anyone who thought they lost their mind when they didn't see it there this morning.
Second This is my blog I can write in it 5 mins after someone or something has made me angry or 7 hrs..thats no ones concern. Thats not fair to me. A lot of people get right on their blogs the minute something happens or a few minutes after something happened that infuriated them. I follow many blogs and a lot of the ones are like that. And last night it was about an hr before I posted but I had to let it out. I met it to be in a mature way,realizing now that caps were on at certain times lol,again sorry I was also dealing with a 2 yr old. So again that post wasn't  quite right and I felt it should be deleted,no ones actions or thoughts were brought to my attention,I was the only person that I know of that had an issue with it.
Third my blog is my diary. I have carpel tunnel in my right wrist and typing is a bit easier then writing so I have turned to blogging. My blog is open to everyone. I only told my mother who is in her 60's lol that there were sexual comments and rants and that she might not want to read it and she understood because it after-all is my blog. Its no one else's...Its mine. Feel free to create your own. As you can clearly see I don't use this to bash people,I use it to get out emotion and also share some recipes with others,I hope to post about how I save money and work on a one income house. I want this to be a positive place but I also want people to read and read it carefully so they never take anything to heart or too personally. Also if I am angry,things will be said in anger. But like a normal adult I will realize my mistakes and come back and apologize. Which I apologize now for calling Joe an A-hole. Although he has many issues he has never been anything shy of protective of me,that does not make him an A-hole. I would like to say once again that I really don't need anyones apology. I am not worried about tomorrow in any way because thats not me,I will not ruin a day. I realize that me just being there will ruin a bit of it but my kids will be enough distraction if certain people decide to come,I have not been told. I feel what is said between other parties should remain so I'm not asking questions I am just waiting and seeing.

Probably will go in Joes car...Oy! My truck is still down,Joe claims all it needs now is an oil change because the dope left everything uncovered the last time it rained so theres water in the oil which is a no-no. I am nervous that there is still something wrong with it. We will see.
I am literally starving myself so I can be super hungry for moms delicious Thanksgiving and pies! The woman made 6! Shes awesome!
It was cute last night Joe brought me home Mcdonalds at 1:30 am..and he knew that I hadnt eaten all night. That was yummy.
Another thing floating in my head, My vacuum and cone went on me at the end of last week and Stefano insists on putting holes in the wall near his crib well the dry wall is getting into the heater and I'm nervous it will start a fire or something. I just don't know how to get it out without a vacuum and buying one is not going to happen for awhile unless Joe gets this bonus they are talking about.
Joes dad is coming up Saturday. So I am indulging in Joes 5 day vacation. Just need to get this place in better shape then it is now before he comes. The kids have been really bad lately with getting into things that make a mess instead of things that are simple and easy to say no too. They are getting too sneaky these days lol.
I ordered somethings off of wal-mart a few days ago and it looks like it will be here Friday unless they don't do mail on that day. lol. I am super excited to be adding to my lingerie collection. I know TMI but its my blog,haha.
Want to get in a few shots tonight for 365. Hoping winter will provide some more awesome pretty shots,right now its kinda blah..or I am losing my motivation and touch...oy! Ah well,only time will tell.
I am not signing off. I am wishing everyone safe travels. Lots of food.Lots of love.Lots of pictures. HAPPY THANKSGIVING! (My fav holiday!)
Here are some pics to show I am in fine spirits and everything I do; I do because I want too not because of anyone else. And I am proud of that. =)

Down and dirty

Survey time!


Sex and relationships;

1. When did you start dating? 14
2. How many people have you had a long term relationship with? 2..sad I know lol
3. How many partners have you had? its double digits lets say that
4. Do you share your past with new significant others? Why not? Thats so strange to me,if I didn't know how many girls and what Joes done I would feel in the dark. People actually hide that stuff from spouses?
5. Do you act differently when with someone? Nope.
6. Are you currently with your crush? I do not crush. Men are stupid.lol
7. Are you romantic? Do I sound romantic?
8. Are you emotional in relationships? No. I will cry if my kids made my day hell lol but not anything over my husband.
9. Are you a good communicator? Try to be,helps if people don't lie to me!!!
10. Do you walk away or fight it out? Oh I fight it out! People who walk away bottle to much up.Irritating.

 Cooking;

1. Can you cook? Indeed.
2. Can you bake? Yuppers
3. Do you always use recipes? Nope
4. What is your favorite appliance in your kitchen? Stove or my skillets and Wok.I really want a kitchen-aid though.
5. Do you eat at the table? Sometimes. Its hard with Joes hours.
6. What is your favorite veggie to cook with? Orange and red bell peppers.
7. Can you plate? Eh not well.
8. Do you make things from scratch? OF COURSE!
9. Do you eat a lot of microwave things? No. I hate canned fake food and I hate frozen fake food.
10. What is your favorite fruit to bake with? Raspberries.

 Driving;

1. Do you drive? Mhm.
2. What do you drive? A piece of poo.
3. What type of driver are you? Watchful.
4. Do you honk your horn a lot? Nope. I scream out my window.
5. Have you ever been in an accident? NO so all the driving jokes can stop you morons,I can drive better then most of you(directed to people who have recently cracked jokes of my driving)
6. Are you a nervous driver? Not unless its really congested and even then I am not nervous I'm just over it and wanna get back to normalness.
7. Do you speed? Little bit.
8. Have you ever gotten a ticket of any kind? Parking ticket once.Oops
9. Do headlights at night bother you? Little bit
10. Dirt or paved roads? Ah both!

 Computers&Internet;

1. Are you on facebook? Of course
2. What is your favorite site? Facebook or 365
3. Can you fix computers? I can a little bit
4. Do you have a printer? Indeed
5. What site do you visit the most? Facebook
6. Do you go to porn sites? haha dont we all?
7. Do you know what things are real and what is scam/spam? Indeed. This computer is about 3yrs old and never ever has had any type of virus or the one it did I got out in minutes and I wasn't the culprit.
8. What protection do you have? AVF pro and Windows defender is customized for my needs.
9. What messengers do you have on your computer? AIM and Yahoo.
10. What type of computer do you have? Compaq desktop

 Food&Drink;

1. What is your favorite fruit? Kiwi
2. What is your favorite vegetable? spinach
3. What is your favorite meal your mom cooks? There is quite a few but her mac and cheese!
4. What fast food place do you like? Taco bell and Mcdonalds
5. Favorite restraunt? Longhorns
6. Favorite type of cookie? Oatmeal,hold the raisins.
7. Favorite cold drink? Ice tea or Dr.Pepper.
8. Favorite hot drink? Tea or Hot chocolate.
9. Can you make alcoholic drinks? Oooo why yes I can.
10. Favorite thing to get at a bar? Cosmo.Girly.

 Pets;

1. How many do you have? 5
2. Their names? Snowshoes,Dominow,Trixie,Hazel and Thumpy
3. How old are they? Snowshoes is going on 3,Dominoe is going on 21/2,Trixie is a year and a half and Hazel is just over a year and my baby Thumpy is 4.
4. What pet do you want next? Dog. The companionship and responsibility thrills me lol
5. Who takes care of the pets? I do mostly. But who ever sees them out of food,feeds them.
6. Are they spoiled? Not really.
7. Are they potty trained? Indeed
8. Spayed and neutered? Yup
9. How did you get them? Strays,Dominoe was from the newspaper and Thumpy from the pet store.
10. Do they sleep with you? Trixie does a lot these days.

 Love&Family;

1. Is your family big? It is but you wouldn't know that
2. Do you have a close family? Not in the slightest.
3. Do you fall in love easily? Heck no.Love is for wimps.
4. Do you have a best friend? Nope. I have just friends.
5. What member of your family are you closest too? My mom.
6. What is the biggest family get together? Theres not really one.
7. Do you abuse the word Love? No and I hate people who do.
8. How many times have you been in love? twice.
9. Family or friends first? Equal.Depends on the situation and stuff.
10. Are you in love? Eh. I'm content.

 Interests;

1. Can you sew? A little
2. Are you crafty? A little
3. Can you sing? A little
4. What is a hobby of yours? Photography in a none income way
5. Do you collect anything? Mhm I do.
6. Can you dance? HA can I dance??? HA Course I can sweetie
7. What do you do for fun? Bunch of things
8. Can you speak any other language? Indeed.
9. What are you good at? hahahhahahahahaha
10. Could you be on Americas got talent? NO

Nothing

Nothing to really talk about...shocking!
Did some shopping on Sat and Sunday. Clothes shopping. Trying something new with Stefano,he gets into so much I'm trying a few different toys where he has to sit down and play with them. Sunday I got him 7-8 plastic(medium sized) animals. So far so good!

My truck is still down to a part that broke that no one seems to have. Its one of those odd parts that kinda break easily on old vehicles because of all the years. Auto mall has it(car dealership like place) but it will take 2 weeks to get in. So last place is a junkyard! Joes at one right now.

M is still being a real witch. Hows that saying go "Blood is thicker then water" Your friends come and go but family is forever. Saddening. Does not bother me because I'm not an emotional person nor do I TRY with people who don't give a damn. =)

No snow here. Not even really a flurry. Its 40 out right now and suppose to warm up. I remember having snow on my birthday (Oct 25th). Maybe it won't be a long winter. I just want lots of snowy days. =) Winter is so fun.

Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday and I am so EXCITED! Pictures galore that day of everyone. Trying to afford outfits for the kiddos.

Speaking of kiddos,they both didn't have a swell night last-night. Yikes! And they were doing so well. CIO is really the only option as nothing is wrong,I don't even feel like its a night terror or nightmare thing either.

I learned about some healthy-green products for my hair today from some of my friends. Very excited to look into it. Funny how over time I have realized so much about chemicals and saving. I re use everything I can. I try to get the green products for cleaning. I recycle. I garden. =) I'm trying. I will get better as I learn more.

I have a couple of recipes I want to share. I need to catch up on here badly. Just nothing exciting is going on.

There will be a post of how I save money as about 4 of you asked how I manage everything. Some of you are people who saw how stocked our two freezers were and asked. =) Promise to be more on the ball with this blog. Sorry for the MIA,just not having my truck has thrown us all of. Outcome though is Joe took his car off the market and I think thats good. That car is met to be a Arbore's car.

It was funny,my mom went shopping with me this weekend so I told her today what clothes I bought I was wearing and she just laughed and said "I can't imagine wearing that type of clothing at home" I knew what she met,she never dresses up while at home and what I am wearing is dressing up to her when to me its just a regular outfit. Not sure where my girly side came from as she is not girly well she is sorta but not fully. My Aunt is really feminine and elegant,might be from her.=) All it is,is jeans and a pink sweater. lol She goes "I want a t-shirt and my dirtiest jeans not my newest jeans on at home" Ah the difference between mother and daughter.

Gotta share somethings I have noticed over time-Or recently. hehe
 I sit cocked eyed at my desk I am never sitting up straight or straight on with my monitor.
Kids at 1&2 do not understand to keep the water in the tub.
Phone calls will come in during nap time but no other time of the day. =p
You have clothes that fit and clothes that FIT..the difference? How your butt and boobs look in them.
Telling the truth about someone is not airing dirty laundry.
A fun chaos is better then a chaotic chaos.
A guys version of helping is sorta the same of a 2yr olds version of helping.

Haha I'm off to tackle a few more things before nap time is over. Still no Joe and he has been gone for 3hrs or more...not sure if thats good or bad. =/
Tootles!
WAIT!  A few pictures for you! =)

Answering questions

I'm going to answer some peoples questions they had for me. Some will be brief others I will explain to the depth.

Why do you not celebrate Halloween or Christmas? Personal reasons. In the bible it states that the sheep were out to pasture well they don't go out in December. But regardless it would be okay if there were not fake things involved,Jesus was not fake so what does Santa have to do with it,Your answer? St.Nick? Am I right. Fine but why all the presents? Why the tears when people realize they can't buy thousand dollars in gifts? Why are people playing Christmas songs when we have not given Thanks at Thanksgiving? I don't like the commercial environment. I don't like the greediness that comes. I will buy gifts all year long,I will donate to charities all year long not at just one given time.  I love the lights,I love snow men,I love snow...I love festive winter,as I call it. =)
Halloween-Its a sinful holiday in my eyes. I love babies in costumes and I love to see what my girlfriends dress up in for their other halves but the pranks and the trick or treating.. Trick or treat?? So if they don't give you a treat you trick them? Thats a little mean. Don't get me wrong I'm no angel...and one day I will probably get into parts of Halloween. But for now its not my thing.

What other Holidays do you not celebrate? I celebrate the rest just not as in depth except Thanksgiving.

Will your kids do things like the tooth fairy? No,I'll have other little cute things and they will know its me whose giving them some change for a tooth. No 5 bucks here,thats silly how things get out of hand.

Is the only thing you drink,Hot chocolate? LOL-No I love tea,coffee,Ice tea,Dr.Pepper,Code red Mt.Dew,ginger ale and strawberry milk!

Tell Me a secret: I can't do that but I will tell you that my first tattoo is a little on the large side and revolves around one person. Hoping with tax money it will be a go ahead for me to get it.

I was wondering if with 4 cats you have fur all over your clothes?  This person met no disrespect. I don't actually,only time is if I hold my rabbit,Snowshoes sometimes leaves white fur behind but you never seem to get it from sitting on any of my furniture or anything.

What type of dog would you like? I saw you love dogs.-Oh I do,I love all kinds too. But Big dogs are my preference. A Rottweiler or German Shepherd are my favorite types. But a boxer,Husky,etc are just fine also. A rescue dog is all it has to be. =)

Do you wear heels less now with kids? In a way because I don't go out often but I have a tendency to wear them around the house too. So its about the same maybe. My ankles looks great so who cares lol

You own a truck but your always talking about different cars,which is it? Haha I'm both give me a duel exhaust jacked up Ford 350 and I'm cool with that,Give me a Nissan Altima with tinted windows and a system that works too. I love vehicles. I love anything with an engine. And I have my preferences just like anyone. =)

With your anxiety do you have frequent bad dreams? I have nights where yes its a little annoying its one bad dream after another but its not really a common thing. But the bad dreams do circulate around things that make my anxiety high so I know thats what causes them.

What can you bench? Haha I can only do it twice but I can do around 125. Before kids it was 180ish.

Have you and Joe always fought like this? Pretty much,maybe 4 weeks we didn't. But I would be an epic fail in any relationship if I couldn't get out how I feel and have someone either care or argue back,point out where I am wrong and such.

Thats all of them. About to make some tea while I wait for Joe to get back then gonna step out and take some pictures. Gonna fight this cold darn it!!!

Just a couple pics for you!
Tootles

Friday Post,Come and get it.

Its Friday...That means I did not write all week...That means I could bust a cap in someone's butt at any moment. Bottled to much in. Oops.

First of all I totally wanna divorce Joe for the simple fact that I am one of those fun little sexual wives and he has no idea what hes missing. I'd like to tell him some things I know about OTHER people but I can't just to teach him hes got it okay!
I'm not asking for a whole lot. No suits,No ties,no candles,taking a shower before the deed...a little silly unless he worked in a dirty job,socks are not required,Cameras are allowed,hell put the black light on. I don't care.Lol. I do little things that show I am still the same gal even with kids and being married *gasp* 3yrs. I am not gonna act 50 or prude or like we have been married 50yrs. Ugh! Okay I could go on but who wants to hear about that crap.

2nd. If you are blaming someone else for lack of communication then in front of a friend cut them off when they are trying to get something off their chest. No only are you a ass who should not get laid but you are part of the problem there smarty.

3rd. If my son throws one more 17yr old like tantrum,I'm throwing one with him! If he is mean to his sister one more time I'm taking him to a baby boot-camp...What? There is no such thing? WELL I just invented it!!!

4th. Hehe I know something everyone things I don't. Mwuhahahaha.

5th. People asked why I'm called DQ. It stands for Da Queen. Why you ask? I know sounds ghetto. I use to and I still do,its sickening really. I know everything about everyone. Not their business but lies,secrets,little about their past,family members,people they know I know....I use to gather info for a friend of mine who sadly was not in the right business but being a father of two he wanted to make sure the people in his life and around him were safe and not trouble.  I find that one person who will tell me the most about you then BAM I got my info for "Just in case" an issue pops up. =) NO I do not do it with everyone. But if you live in about a 5-mile radius of me I know these things about you: Your background,your imediate family members,your kids names,Why your last relationship failed(just in case),Your maiden name,where you parents live and what car you drive. =) But no one ever figures me out and I love that.  You think you got something figured out then BAM I do a 360,Your worried because I do things at my pace...then BAM you see everything is in order. =) Comes from my teenage years and what went on during them. People fear Joe when I'm the one who will hit you with no sign of doing so. =) I'll hit you with a smile. I'm that crazy one that gets in-between a bipolar with a knife and a guy I didn't know well. Wanted to get that out as some of you are misunderstand who I am and what I am about. I can be nice to you but in the hr your gone....well thats a whole other story. Get to know people. Your best defense.

6th. My mom comes home today from Maine. She brought stuff from people who feel like my family. For the kids and Stephen king books for me. Yes,I am a huge fan!!

7th. If you say your gonna do something do it. End of story.

8th. Even if you cover something up...I still know the truth. The mind is a game to me and I love to win.

9th. My weight is going down just slowly. a lb here,2 lbs there....I'll take that! Lifting weights is getting easier I can do a rep of a hundred curls now when I first started back up I could do maybe 25 lol. Pathetic.

So in conclusion things would be perfect if a few people got their acts together but is that everyones sad story?
Here is a few pictures. Not the best but what I have to work with right now. =)
I will maybe put up a recipe tomorrow sometime. Joe has a car too work on so its just me and the kids yet again. My days are just lovely. Not fully complaining. I could have it worse. But hey I could have it better. I could have the old Joe but the new not messing up Joe and a third bedroom!OH and a dog! =)
haha Enjoy your weekends!!!

Family Drama

Where to start...oh where to start... Well the one thing that bothers a lot of people is when a parent brings their children into something and when they are ages that shouldn't swear or talk to a person they way they did. If you had the problem you talk to me,Yourself.
Second are you delusional? I invited you for memorial or labor day can't remember..so you saw the kids,I went to the parade that you were also at,you were here for my kids birthday party. We were all at some family things this summer..YET you have my son telling my husband and the world that I didn't let you see my kids. Thats how badly you don't know your own sister,half sister but sister nonetheless. I dislike my mother in law(bless her heart as she seems like an angel right now compared to my family) and I have never not let her see the kids,I don't roll that way sweetie. I think that is a cruel way to punish someone. I could hate you and you still could see MY kids because I have control. I know that you and I hate each-other but you don't hate my kids and they don't hate you and I refuse to bring my kids in-between my problems. So from this day on we will never see nor talk to each-other but they will have no idea why or that we hate each other with a passion,although I do not hate you..I just think you have things in your head you can't seem to realize is a made up lie. I didn't get everything growing up but your damn right I got more because times were different. Money was easier on the parents,I was the last child,the technology was easier....Things were completely different when I was a child and when you were a child. And you think thats my fault? You think I came out of the womb saying "I hate Marya" "I will be spoiled so I can ruin Marya's life" Nah you and I both know that. Thats just silly. When you read that you rolled your eyes and huffed knowing that ain't true or could ever be even a possibility.
You are the older one,The older sibling always is in control and bossy. You could have been bossy 15yrs ago and we might have a relationship. Call me up give me a new A-hole if that helps.
I have to point out that when your son or who ever wrote what they did to Joe,was in away trying to look out for me but you can't quite bring yourself to support me or be there for me. You pinpointed that he was no good with finances so somewhere you keep tabs on someone who is dealing with a lot. Why could you have not spoken up? Where was the messages? I remember when you sat down my ex Jeremy and talked to him for me. Like you wanted to make sure I was okay but not disrespect him at the same time. A smart move. This time you just stay behind closed doors and lend no hand,no advice...nothing. Thats not a sister thats an enemy who laughs at the little inch of pain one other might have.
You sit there and you remember who sent you emails begging,pleading,complimenting your butt trying to get you to come to thanksgiving. That wasn't trying? You remember who showed up at a BBQ thinking she was showing she wanted to be family oriented brought the thing you asked us too,I believe it was Ice and then to find out we were not invited.  Yes,thats correct I remember things. How about the sister fight we had in the trailer when I was 14-15 and it was a sibling fight because in the end we sat down and had Black raspberry ice-cream at the time our favorite kinds. Oh yes, the bitch remembers things like that.  Maybe I am not quite as horrible as you thought.
Lets talk about the fact that other people have to tell me what you say about me. I would have NEVER known you liked my photography if our poor mother who has been trying to bring us closer for years hadn't told me. You never once left a comment on them. You never once hit me up in chat. You never called.You never wrote to me. I had no idea you even looked at my photography. Now explain to me why you couldn't tell me that? Explain to me why I have to be the one to call and IM first but when I do I get shunned? Sent you a message explaining myself and how I remember loving these masks you had as a child I thought you were so cool for owning them...and you write back a sentence...well if that don't scream "Stop talking to me". I was planning a fall get together family dinner. I obviously had nothing against ya. I obviously had no reason to completely get cussed out by a 17yr old and a 14yr old. Which by the way folks I have 4 cats and a clean house that shows I do quite well owning pets. =) Although it helps they are outside kitties that come in here and there,they are too cool to be seen at home haha.
Back to seriousness. No lies were told. The truth yes. Lies no. You might never see this as I have no idea where you even think you saw the thing that was written by me according to you last time. Little confused. And let me tell you the day my kid calls their aunt which would be you a bitch they won't make it to see their next birthday but I make sure my kids have respect for family no matter what I would like to say.
Anything else can be said to my face. Words have never hurt my feelings never will. Ask everyone I will always let you have the last word,if you wanna slam a door in my face go for it. I won't block a person,I want ignore a phone call...Thats not me. Because what they might want to say might be whats needed. Tomorrow holds a new thing.
I'm sorry to my 80yr old dad who has to deal with this stress. He brought my siblings into his life with open arms. Never did a thing to harm them. We owe him to act like we love each-other. I know you won't if I know you well enough you have already told either mom or someone close to mom that you won't be attending Thanksgiving. Am I right? Ah thought so. Sad. because when that year comes around you don't have dad or mom,your going to be the one that feels like an ass. And I hate the word Ass but thats what you truly are for hurting Dad. And Mom lets not forget her. Tears were in her eyes when she saw her first grand-daughter talking the way she did to me. She was looking forward to December with her when the two would go to the mall.(A huge cute idea!) and that crashed down on her because you refuse to open up to anyone you refuse to pick up a phone and yell and curse at me herself. Trust me my friends are my friends because they are blunt.
This is how online bullying gets started. What your own flesh and blood did was something that lots of people have committed suicide over. When people try to expose people as something they are not. I guess you missed the whole awareness thing on Wednesday about that. The words she said were some of the same lines said in emails found by parents and police after a student,a child had committed suicide. Its okay to stand up for what you believe and voice an opinion but to do it wrongly,to lie about what the person is like then top if off with I hope "everyone knows.." blah blah is a type of bullying.  I'm sorry that your teaching your kids this.
My kids won't be allowed around that.
There is so much more to say but why? Why say something that might never be read,never understood or never sink in. Taking something seriously and too the heart is the first step. I know you have been like this for years because of your last friend who came and talked me told me these exact words "Hillary,I thank you for coming and staying with us,up until now I had a whole other perspective of how you were based on what your sister has told us..I'm sorry for judging you before I knew you." So I know you have done this before.
Notice I never deleted anything that was said. Never brought anyone into it that didn't need to be. You can not bring me down. You have always done this. You tried to say mom treated Keith better.  And if I ever find out or even start to wonder if that was why what happened September 7th 1990 had anything to do with what you said about him or the parents he loved dearly. You and I will fight like the devil. You were never hated.You were never not favored. And you keep repeating that. You keep repeating that mom and dad didn't like you all stuff you know is not true. You know it by how mom jumps at anything to do with you. Book sale,shop hop or what ever its called,get together,facebook she likes almost everything you write,advice she always responds,stuff for the kids-shes there. More then any of us actually. I have never been to one of R's(Not saying the names of children) plays but how many has mom been too??? How many times has she came over too cook that crap that the three of you like..sammie pea wiggle or salmon pea wiggle???? Who found a ride in an ice storm to make it for one of your childrens births? Uh huh you know who it was. Your mother. Your one and only mother. You can't take back missed holidays when shes gone,you cant say your sorry when shes in a casket(fingers crossed that will be many many years away) You can't call her for advice when shes gone. You have once chance,one mother,one life. Live it right. If your such a good person. Show it. Show it to the person who was fat with you for 9mos. Many men won't even date a woman with kids the fact that Dad did and made sure you guys approved was one hell of a guy still is. Mabel? I believe his little nickname is for you? I know a step dad right now that has nothing to do with his step son. Very sad. He has said before "Ain't my child,so its her(the wife) problems when it comes to him" Thats harsh.
So in conclusion. Sit back put your feet up and tell me when I have EVER done any of these to you:

• Cursed at you.
• Told you,You can not see my kids. Me not anyone else but ME?
• Walked away from you
• Talked at all the way your kids talked to me,to them.
• Threatened not showing up to a family function because you would be there
• Walked into a room and was hostile towards you or your family
• Judged your children
• Put you down (I have always bragged about you.) Amazing. Amazing person to raise three kids on your own. Never said any different.
• Not been there when you have invited me somewhere (I cried at R's 6th or 8th-Might have been both grade graduation damnit)
• Said I didn't like you
• Said you were a bad mother.

Again You live once,There's no second chance when death strikes. Don't shed tears when someone is no longer there. Don't grieve for someone who you don't respect.

I can't take back having you in the birthing room with me. I trusted you were honest when you said we would try. I called you to be there. And I know lots of people who wouldn't want siblings seeing there junk.

As you can all see I kinda wrote this like she was going to read it. Doubt she will. Because if she had my blog you would think she would have commented on my posts there were really heart-felt and showed that I needed obviously some guidance and kindness. So I pray that she does not have my blog for the fact that it was yet another way for my sister to contact me and be there for me and she was not. I'd still to this day fight some of the men in her life that I think mistreated her,I'd like to personally put a bullet in ones leg for some of the things he has said about his child and Marya. I can be very protective.
Sorry you all had to see the drama on facebook. I love you all. I love my little family but I also know even on my own I still need my parents. =)
After 2 anxiety attacks and a crying mom and a very angry husband I am hoping this post let out some sadness I feel. Hoping I won't completely go psycho and punch anything now. I almost threw an egg at the neighbor for gods sake,lol he would understand as I warned as many people as I could. Bless their hearts. =)
Still here for anyone else who needs me,just because I'm having a rough time does not mean I can't be someone's ears. =) Like I said I am very protective and don't mind whoopin a$$ and taking names. =)
"When in doubt,Knock em out" Always said that. That has been my trade mark saying along with "When I hit someone I want them to go down like a shot of tequila!" Hence why I work out. haha.

On another note my Mother in law is dropping in town tomorrow. Should be a good day. =)
Tootles!

Some photos once again to show how much I love my family.
My beauties and pride and Joy.

Good Morning!

The sun is out. Joes making money. The kids are down for their nap. Life is okay. =)
I will write a post soon explaining the lovely family drama. But for now I need to keep myself calm. Yesterday I had major chest pains and a headache from stress. I never wanted to be that person. Always wanted to be a calm easy going type person. So I am indulging in the sun and picking up my house a little.
I have a lot I want to write about this mornings events but I know for now I must just let things be. Since I have no idea what was in my families OJ. They fell off their rocker I think....
No no not thinking about them.
Back to enjoying my Sunday in my small apartment...but you know I get everything I want....SO I will take a house with a pool...Hm.
OKAY....no no no not thinking about them.
I made blueberry muffins this morning for the kiddos and they were not real crazy about them. I believe breakfast is so important and thats one of the meals they refuse to really eat. They take a few bites but thats about it. Nothing cuter then a mom in her pjs running around getting a full course meal together...and nothing is more aggravating then her kids not eating it. Haha.
Gonna start my laundry in a minute. I try so hard not to do much on Saturday,kinda how I was brought up but man does it seem like its the only day I have motivation.Ugh.
Hoping to get some good pictures. I'm using a friends camera so its really hard to set the setting to be what I want because I feel like I am messing hers up.=/
Gonna leave ya with some photos.
A post will be coming about things. No worries. =)
Tootles

The last photo was 100% unedited but we know I am not a fan of edited photos. I had it on a slower shutter time and it caught Stefano as he was bending over the bed but made him like transparent,even blended into the bed like. But thats his yellow sweater. Way cool I thought. =)

Last one I swear lol

Survey to make up for the Sundays I have missed. And maybe just being honest and not thinking about what I am writing will help. =) So I found this one and liked how random but serious it was.

1-What is your get away?Picture taking.
2-Name the person and the one thing irritating you about them-Joe and how he is handling things.
3-Favorite type of dog?Rottweiler and German Shepherds.
4-Do you ever take longer in the shower then needed to feel away from the world? YES,lately anyway.
5-What is really bothering you? The fact that I'm not happy and its Fall and its almost my birthday. I should be on cloud 9. *takes breath* That felt good.
6-Do you eat cake at birthday parties? Haha sometimes but not always.
7-How do you answer the phone? Hello with an extra "O".
8-What noises do you hear right now? Laundry machine,dryer and my son attempting to drink from a cup.
9-What about your self would you like to change? Obviously my weight but something lately thats a pain is the fact I can't tell where noises are coming from....
10-What do you want for Christmas? haha I don't celebrate Christmas but my bday is in 3 days and I want to be happy and a tripod. =)
11-What is something you bitch to much about? wow good one,Letting the cats in and out lol.
12-What are your views on the death penalty? I am all for it. I am for cops shooting people that deserve it. I am for self defense. Our Jails are too full..too many bad people are being let out to hurt others because of how our system works.
13-How are you feeling? Okay,Could be better.
14-What is your favorite food grilled? Steak.
15-What is your most least favorite thing to clean?Ceiling,small things,fans and the kitchen in general. But I do it because I hate things dirty or unorganized. =)
16-If you could start your own buissness what would it be?Either something with photography,a restraunt or hehe a Bounty hunter. =)
17-Do you sleep with your door closed?Noooo
18-First three words that come to mind? Failure,family,Soothe
19-What are you going to do today? Clean...Helps me think and clear my mind.
20-Whose music gets you pumped?Pink,Eminem and Timberland.

Picture time

Will write whats been going on probably tomorrow. Not much to fill you all in on. =)
Tootles